My Daddy

On Sunday 11/23/08 My Dad had a small heart attack. He was moving from one apartment to another. I had just shown up to help him finish up the apartment. He started to complain that his chest was hurting. I immediately had him sit in a chair. I continued working on the apartment while he rested for a few. When all was said in done he was in pain, but not severe. I left him in his new apartment and continued home. Thankfully I have Sundays and Mondays off. He called me Monday afternoon and said that he wanted to go to the Hospital to be examined. I picked him up around 1:30pm. It was the scariest processes that I have ever seen. There is nothing like seeing you Father being strapped in a Hospital bed, and having wires attached all over his body. They placed a patch over his heart to increase blood flow, as well as a shot to thin his blood. They ran E.K.G.'s as well as Stress tests and all kinds of heart monitoring. He has no health insurance, no life insurance, not even a living will. Although it was not the time or place for it to be discussed; it was. Who I am supposed to call in the event of his death. How he wants to be buried. How to avoid taking on his debt. What to do with his belongings. It's one of the scariest conversations that I have ever had with my Father. Call his Priest, then Uncle David, the go to my sister, and tell her. Call my mom, then call Aida (his wife in Russia) then call cousin Carolyn. Then call John, then call Tom Brown, then call my Aunt Linda. He handed me a list of phone numbers along with his Social security number. He asked if I knew his birthplace and birthdate. Of course I did. He asked if I knew the family history for sickness, and we had a complete conversation about his parents as well as his grandparents. It is not pleasant. I left the Hospital after 12 hours. He fell asleep, and I setup his belongings near his bedside, plugged in his cell phone and put it next to him, even bought him a Diet pepsi. I didn't know what else to do. It's so heart wrenching to watch your Father in pain. And you can't do shit about it.
My older sister is one of those people who take things WAY to seriously or not enough. She didn't take this seriously. Which makes me want to yell at her, but what good will that do? - None. I want to tell her to go see him, but I don't know if her lack of seriousness would make him feel better or worse. I don't think many people know of his ailments. I saw Tom Brown, and John last night. That was the first time I had seen Tom in probably 10 years. It was good to see him. He is a really sweet guy, and dropped everything in his day to come see my dad.
I am going to head over there tonight. I will bring him a Diet Pepsi since I know his head is probably pounding. I am going to get the keys to his house too, so that I can start unpacking him from the move. I don't want him to be overwhelmed when he is out of the hospital. For those of you who have been through the same thing, you know what I am talking about. For those of you who don't; count your blessings, and be thankful that you don't know.

A dreary Day in Phoenix

A Cloudy day in Phoenix AZ. This hardly ever happens. But today was the day. It is supposed to rain tomorrow and Thursday. I am looking forward to it! I haven't seen real rain in awhile. This Thanksgiving should be good. I will be at work with my associates. Hopefully we can pick up some Turkey sandwiches for the Turkey Day. I am working Christmas too. I'm the only one without family and what not here, I figured it was only fair to volunteer. I get to see my Jamie in 17 days. I am super Duper excited. I get to meet the Parents too. I am ready for all interrogation. I am going to fly her out here for Christmas too. This way we can spend Christmas Eve together and do our gift exchange. I miss her like crazy. I think of her so often. I'm in love with her. And I don't mind at all.

One Slice.

How to Win My Heart

As always exceeding and beyond. That will keep my heart pumping. This is why I love you Jamie Rey. xoxo

Today is another great day

We had another management Seminar today. It was held at the Hilton Suites downtown. The speaker was quite interesting. He spoke of generational differences in the workplace, and how to manage them efficently. I picked up a lot of good information, and it gave me some time to rub elbows with upper management. I really LOVE my job. Like I really really LOVE my job. Tonight was a pretty night too. I took some photos on my way out to lunch. I ended up at a Safeway. I had 2 associates that had birthdays last month. So I went out and bought a Boston Cream Strawberry Cake, and some cookies for my team. They loved it. My team is at an 85% for the month which is AWESOME! I am so proud of them...ok enough rambling for now. I sent off some paperwork to Jamie today. I also sent her some photos that she has been asking for. I put a photo in there for her Dad too. He misses Flagstaff so I though I would give him one of the scenic photos that I took. I blew it up to a 5x7 so that it was big enough to see. I hope he enjoys it. I have the majority of my Christmas photos in order as well. The phone that I purchased for my mother should be arriving on Monday. I am also paying for my dad's car to be fixed this weekend along with some slippers that he wanted for Christmas. I have so much to do, and no time to do it in. I will have to make due I guess. I really just want to help my dad get his car fixed, and get him in order. Everything has been so chaotic since he lost his job. Then mom lost her job. It put a lot of stress on me, but not to much that I couldn't handle it. Next order of business is saving money to be able to travel more in 2009. I am looking forward to the end of this year. It will be good to get 2008 out of the way, and start 2009 debt free. By 2009 I will have paid off my debt to Stephen Dickey, the IRS, and almost complete my interlock. I am so close. March, and I am in the clear. (thank you Jesus for no more of those payments.) I can't wait. 2009 looks like a fresh new year for economic status.

Sweeeeet

Sabrina and I prepared for one of the biggest parties of the year Roller Derby Awards ceremony. We thought about going as Dumb and Dumber for Halloween next year. I have a ton more pictures on my digital, so you will actually get to see what we wore to the costume party. Sabrina went as a Demon, and I went as a fallen angel. We also went to Cash Inn for my good buddy Laura's birthday, and another good friend Megan. We had a blast that night. We had so much to do. We bought flowers for the girls birthdays, and ended up bar hopping the majority of the night. I also got to see my Amber which was awesome. She is engaged to Courtney. Congratulations you two!! I love you both! More pictures to come. I got a few emails from you guys saying i haven't posted in a few days. I will do my best to do a daily update!! Have an awesome Wednesday!!!

Broadcasting Live

Radio shows these days have changed so much. I got a call from Gem O'Brien who spoke with my Father about getting back into Broadcasting. It looks like we will be broadcasting live again soon.
On another good note my Step sister wrote a paper on the topics of Mana and polytheism. She is being recognized in the Collesium in Moscoe this weekend. Her paper has stirred up some reviews from political stand points as well as religious. She has been offered interviews on almost every news channel you can think of. Who would have thought that a 15 year olds stand point would stun the world? Then again she does attend the top schools in Moscow. Congrats Sis!

Beauty

this one is awesome

Some Definitions

Just some definitions to remind everyone of the bullshit that some try to pull. ::FYI::


Manipulate -
1. To tamper with or falsify for personal gain: He tried to manipulate stock prices for personal gain.
2. To influence or manage shrewdly or deviously: He manipulated public opinion in his favor.

Shrewdly-
1. Disposed to cunning practices; tricky; deceitful; hardheadedness.

Deviously-
1. not straightforward; shifty or crooked: He tried a devious scheme to acquire trust.
2. Not straightforward; shifty: a devious character.

Fake -
1. to conceal the defects of or make appear more attractive, interesting, valuable, etc., usually in order to deceive: The story was faked a bit to make it more sensational.
2. to trick or deceive (an opponent) by making a fake: His story about her was fake; he wanted his friends to believe him.

A Red Tie Affair

I'm not violent. Not in any manner. Not even a G. I just know how and when to use force. Stick with me, and you'll learn that words are more powerful than anything...like they say...A Picture Is Worth A Thousand Words...Can you hear what I have to say?

I have my guns not to aim or to kill,

Not to seek venagance or even a thrill.

My words are my defense and my guns back it up,

If a criminal breaks into my house; he just ran out of luck.

This is my protection, my weapon of choice.

It is strong like me, but not as strong as my voice.

I keep this by my side almost everywhere I go,

There are bad people all around, and this I know.

I will forever protect my family and my lady,

From all things violent and all people that are shady.

Beg to differ?-Then Let's let's debate.

And if we're both wrong, then I'll see you at the Gate.

Something so important

I find it almost funny that people come out of the wood works to vote this term. When it was Bush and Kerry the voting numbers were high, but not abnormal in any sense. This term there are so many people that have come out to vote. It's not even funny to look at the turn out 4 years ago, and to look at the turn out this year. This is a scary race, and for more than 10,000 reasons. We are facing an economic crisis. We have a African American candidate, and an older guy who finished 5th from the bottom at West Point upon graduation. In my opinion there is no right or wrong choice. But I do believe that McCain is the lesser of two evils. He has my vote. Our economy will change with McCain and Palin. We will go into to a deeper recession with Obama. I for one, do not want to see what was once the most powerful country in the world suffer economically any more. I have 2 parents that were unemployed until recently. Both have considered moving into my 2 bedroom condo...where I live alone. It is a scary thing. Not because my parents need me, but because the economy sucks so bad that they cannot find another line of employment. We need a change, we need to move into another direction. But not the direction of a man who won't even salute the flag. Who will not sing the national anthem. I could NEVER and will NEVER vote for a man who is so unpatriotic. McCain is older. That is not always a downfall. It means he has experience. Wisdom, and more common sense than a younger candidate can offer. I can almost guarentee that Obama will win. He is the more popular candidate. But that will not stop me frfom thinking that we are heading towards a world of hurt.

It felt like a red tie affair

Many more photos to come. I had my 380 in the next batch. I LOVE them. So I will be posting in a day or two. My weekend was magical. I had a ton of fun. Thanks Toni. You are the bestest ever. I have a video that you may want to see later. lol. I may post it...probably not. Ok I won't. I'm sure Toni would kill me. anywho. Hope you are all remaining blessed. Especially at the poles today. It's a scary day no matter where you are.

Some things in my head. Can you comprehend?

In all essences that maturity has bound. I still feel stupidity and contained to a habitat. I feel as if I squandered myself control for the wishing of an emotion that was once foreign to me. Once I gain control of my nature my tears still fall for they have no reason to stop. I find myself resembling a child. One who needs the nurtuing and comfort of a mother. It's then I realize how lost my childhood really was. No one to blame but my own inhibitions and my rush to not be vulnerable with my childhood. The memories that remain are dismal and barren. They lack essence and compassion. I stand in self realization that my childhood never began because of the conformities I have forced upon myself.

oldies, but goodies

My Beautiful Godkids. I love you Austin and Chris

Every once and awhile I have the opportunity to hang with these 2 little gents. They are very near and dear to my heart. I love them to pieces. I picked them up last night after work, and took them to my house for a slumber party. We watched movies until they fell asleep. I though that I would catch a few pictures of them while they spent time with me. I love you boys!!